Enjoying the Sun

It is so nice to have the sun back. With the branches from our tree cut, more light floods into my bedroom now and the landscape outside my window has opened up much more. The offending brances used to cover up so much of my view, but I can now see the road in front of the garden and the hills in the distance more clearly.

The 8 of Cups stands at the beginning of today's draw. I think that this card is lodged somewhere amongst my unconscious insecurities, which is why it is showing up now. Due to government cuts, I will not be able to teach in the way that I have been after July and my agency will no longer offer the same kind of work. At the moment, I am unsure about what I will do when my contracts are finished. It took me so long to pull myself out of the hole that I was in before and I don't want to slip back into how things were. The 8 of Cups is a card of moving forward when something has been exhausted, which this work soon will be. This tarot card sits in the back of my mind, knowing that I will soon need to move on.

I like how this Queen of Coins from The Witches Tarot waves her coin at me. She's trying to get my attention - 'Yoo-hoooo!', she shouts from the top of her hill. There are a few people who this woman could be. Because I see the suit of coins as the material and enterprising section of the tarot, I am wondering if she is the lady I have been speaking to from a newly-born sister-agency. She says that she might be able to offer me some work. The jobs would be similar and paid the same, but instead of my being chosen for projects, I would propose workshops to the new agency and my working would depend on whether the schools and other organisations are interested in them. I did speak to her about running my t-shirt design course as one such option, but on looking at how much funding I would get for resources, it might not be practical - the t-shirts and transfer paper are pretty expensive. However, with a little thought, I am sure that I can come up with something. I have a form to fill in, so am waving back to this particular queen and am telling her that I will get on with it today.

There is one other person who this queen brings to mind - a lady I am working with at the moment on two projects. With her wild black hair, she even looks a little bit like her. Since she will be in the same boat as me by the end of July, she has been suggesting that we get together and find ways of publicising ourselves for future work. I am not entirely sure what we would do, but she has been freelancing and working on art projects for a lot longer than I have, so the Queen of Coins could represent her knowledge and experience in this field.

The 8 of Cups moves out of stagnation and the queen becomes it's destination. It is important that she holds up the coin. It's both an incentive and a goal to work towards; a light at the end of the tunnel. The Queen of Coins is a secure and resourceful woman. Even though I believe she has the two women I have mentioned within her, I think the card also suggests my need and fight towards self-sufficiency and independence.

I don't have much to do today. My plans were changed at the last minute, and aside from the agency form, I don't need to plan anything for school on Friday. When I was not supporting myself, I felt guilty for enjoying days like this, but since I now am, maybe I should simply kick back and enjoy the sun.



Illustrations from The Tarot of the Witches by Fergus Hall