The Barrier

I didn't feel so wonderful when I got up yesterday morning for work. My fatigue was with me once again, and while I was sitting on the train, I was wondering how I was going to get through the day. My legs felt heavy, I was a little spaced out, and I could have done with going back to bed.

My lessons actually perked me up. The kids were great, but I did get a little irritated by the head of the centre. She had walked into my lesson and started questioning what I was intending to spend the budget on. My desire to buy was mainly down to her already buying the wrong materials. Half of the stuff orderered has still not turned up. It wasn't her line of questioning that bothered me the most. I was more annoyed that she chose to do it during one of my lessons and in front of everyone. Now that's not very professional, is it?

The other practitioner who drives me there every week picked me up afterwards and we went and sat in a pub garden by the river for a couple of hours, drinking coffee and talking. She has had her fair share of problems with the teaching staff at this school, so she understands where I am coming from. In the short time that I have been working with this practitioner, we have become friends. She is interesting, hardworking, and very generous.

Despite saying that I didn't want to go out last night, after a bad day at work for my boyfriend, I relented and we popped into town for a few drinks. A good handful of my friends were already going out, so we met up with them. I had a really nice evening but I still didn't feel my best. However, it was actually nice to talk with everyone and it took my mind off of the way I'd been feeling. We cut our evening before it got too late and went back to one of my friend's house, where we stayed the night in her spare room.

I am not entirely sure where today's card, the 2 of Swords, fits in. The woman in the illustration is cutting herself off. She doesn't want to pay attention to what is happening in the water behind her and closes off her heart with her arms, producing a barrier. This could relate to a few of my friends who are currently trying their best to avoid what they know deep down is the right thing to do. If not about them, then the woman in this card could also be a symbol of keeping things simple today and not letting anyone or thing in. My boyfriend and I are going to the coast tomorrow, so have needed a day of doing little today.



Illustration from The Morgan Greer Tarot by Bill Greer