The Honesty Motel

My family did go to my cousin's party on Saturday in the end, as my mum's leg felt better after resting. My boyfriend and I ended up staying as my uncle said he would drive us home the next day. It was all far nicer than I thought it would be, and I ended up relaxing and getting a little tipsy on the wine and celebrations. Nothing too drastic, since I try to not go overboard these days.

Whenever I have had a couple of wines, it's as though I have booked myself straight into The Honesty Motel, because I have this burning desire to tell people exactly what I think; you know, all the stuff that you'd usually keep to yourself, both good and bad. I kind of did that on Saturday, which is why I think the Knight of Swords threw himself into yesterday's draw. I sometimes see him as me. He can be impulsive, occasionally insensitive, and a general bull in a china shop when he gets going. Thankfully, I didn't speak to the relative who I fell out with, but I didn't exactly hide my thoughts and feelings from everyone else. Even though nobody seemed particularly bothered in the morning, I think I probably said a few things I would rather have held back.

Rather than chuck herself in like the Knight of Swords, The High Priestess sits back in silence. She very rarely opens her mouth, but observes how she feels instead. Deep down, I think I was fine at the weekend and doubt anyone will care about my directness. I was a little heavy-handed in my debate with one guest, but he and I did get on and sat together under the gazebo after most of the guests had left, talking. The High Priestess asks us to check deep within and examine what our intuition believes about a situation. I don't think anyone would have been truly offended by my short stay at the Honesty Motel.

Today has been about the little things, but I plan to throw myself into my list tomorrow, since I have scanning to do, some sewing, paperwork, and more proposals for the agency. I was happy to hear from my agent that I received good feedback from the more problematic of my schools. Apparently, they said that the kids enjoyed working with me and that they were all impressed with the work I have done there so far. This is a weight off of my mind and a good reference for my future.

Generally, I feel good today. I am wondering if it has something to do with the lack of bread in my diet, as I feel less bloated and not so tired. Maybe that is a question for my High Priestess.



Illustrations from The Hanson-Roberts Tarot by Mary Hanson-Roberts