On her Own

Both of today's cards are awash with blue, but this is where the likenesses end. The first figure is outstretched and dives into the depths of the sea. Clouded in shadow, the water's surface doesn't give much away about what lays beneath, and this is the core of the cards meaning - the man is simply throwing himself towards something without consideration. You might see this as being either brave or reckless. In contrast, the young man in the second card is closed and hunches forward. The wind nips at his bare legs and the sky looks close to breaking into a storm. With nobody else near, he is alone on the beach and looks to us with an element of fear in his eyes. Has his own foolishness or recklessness put him in this position?

There is something very empowering and freeing about using these cards. They are what they are. The young man in the second card is a personal figure for me. His image lurks somewhere within my soul, since I enjoy my own company and the time I spend by myself. He symbolises all that is good about being alone, but in his darker aspects, he can represent the fear of loneliness. There is a difference between choosing to be alone, which I often do, and being left by yourself with nobody to reach out to, should you require them. That is a fear of mine for later life.

My chronic tiredness has lingered from yesterday into today. I can't explain exactly how it feels but it is a different kind of tiredness to normal. I feel drained and dizzy, and my concentration wanes. It seems to erupt at the same time as my stomach problems, so once again, I wonder if it is connected to my IBS. Even though we were asked to go and watch some bands today, neither of us wanted to spend the last day of our holiday together in the pub, so instead, we went out shopping in the sun. My boyfriend finally decided to go and spend his birthday money on a camera, so we trailed around photography shops, looking for a good deal. He and I had been talking about the prospect of him buying one a few nights ago. He was saying that we could go out and take pictures together and then we could both work on them at home, if we needed to.

I really like the idea of creating things with my boyfriend. My camera is not as sophisticated as his, but it would be exciting for me to go out and take pictures together. We talked about how we could collage our work together on Photoshop. With that in mind, The Dark Beach might not be the last oracle I create. Maybe he and I can concentrate on a collaboration of our original work.

As with many of my draws, today's cards remind me of a friend. Sometimes, I think the cards give an insight into how those close to me are feeling. After the recklessness of another night out last night, one of my mates is feeling a little emotionally and physically sore. I'd say that's her in the second card. As a sideline, after thinking about the suggestion of death in yesterday's draw, it was interesting to wake up and find out that Osama Bin Laden had been killed.




Illustrations from The Dark Beach Oracle by Prince Le Normand