My Days of Innocense

It was good for me to get out yesterday. I think it was what I needed. I went round to my friends and we walked to a small village, where we looked in some charity shops and then sat in a pub garden for a bit. As another friend lives there, I left a message with her to say I was in town. She has had a bit of a hard time of late and has been up and down. Yesterday was a downer for her, so in an attempt to grab the bull by the horns, we went round to see her, uninvited. I think that it was what she needed as well, because it forced her to get up and pull herself together.

I hadn't really wanted to do anything this weekend, but once my friend had put her makeup on, she wanted to take us for a drink, so we went to a small wine bar next to her house and sat outside. Her parents came too and then my boyfriend eventually completed the six of us after he'd finished work. Because of my friend not feeling so good, her parents were worried about leaving her, so we offered to stay with her for the night. We took the conversation and a curry back to hers half way through the evening.

Today's card suggests emotional fulfillment and warmth. I think it represents my friends and family; the palace behind them might symbolise a place of emotional comfort and security. As an only child, I think it's quite nice to see a family of three in this illustration, rather than the traditional four.

My boyfriend was very generous today, buying my parents a printer for their new laptop. It is a good one and I think they were quite touched; the colours in the sample he printed out while settling it up were great. He also bought me a CD. At the risk of embarrassing myself, it is the greatest hits of Bucks Fizz. On our trip to Birmingham the other week, we had joked about buying one of their albums, so he ordered it. Bucks Fizz were probably my first musical love as a kid. My childhood wall was filled with their posters and I played their records endlessly. My favourite member was Jay Aston, who I'd say was the first popstar I became a fan of. In my young mind, she was beautiful. When I look back now, I can understand all of the reasons why I liked her. In comparison to the remainder of the band, she was edgier and less sugary-sweet. She used to customise her clothes and was always the one I looked for in the pictures. When you think of the kind of acts that popped up later in the 80s, such as Madonna, you could probably say that Jay was ahead of her time. My boyfriend and I listened to it on the way home this morning. It brought back so many memories from my days of innocence; especially my old favourite, When We Were Young, which was sung by Jay.

Two other friends asked us to go out this evening, but after yesterday's impromptu night away from home, we really just want to stay home in our palace this evening as we had originally planned to.




llustration from The Mystic Dreamer Tarot by Heidi Darras