I drew this card when I woke up this morning, but wasn't in the best mood to interpret it. I shuffled up the deck again this afternoon and the same card appeared, so I guess it's meant to be.I have felt tearful since I got up and am not feeling too differently now. It's as though Captain James T Kirk has teleported me back to this time last year, when I felt achy, useless, and had no designs on my future. Since I have a little money saved from my last job, I think it will be difficult for me to get unemployment benefit. Down to the way that things are going, it looks as though it mightn't be much easier for me to get work either. I wrote to my agents about the position in the referral unit today. Ive had nothing back from them. If there was a card in this deck which was dowsed in fog and with a broken down signpost sitting before me, then that would quite realistically be the one for me today, because that is how I am feeling right now - confused and unsure of what to do next.
So what of today's child? She uses the moon as some kind of healing portal. What I see it as, with relation to the keywords beneath the title, is a source for forgiveness, forgiving others, and rising above our ego. Mine feels bashed and tender at the moment. I think this card came here twice today to tell me to give myself a break and forgive myself for all that's been. Yesterday, I was thinking about all of the things I would do differently if I had my time again. Most people say they wouldn't change a thing, but I think I'd be a fool to tread the same footsteps again. If only I had known then what I know now. But this card tells me to ease up on myself and put those thoughts to rest. The child could very well say 'There's enough people out there who will gladly try to drag you down, so why do it to your self'. Point taken.
Images from The Wild Wisdom of the Faery Oracle by Selina Fenech
Oh, no!
ReplyDeleteI'm really sad that you're feeling down on yourself. Please don't! You're such a lovely lad and don't deserve such self flagellation. It may or may not help that I think everyone goes through this to some extent.
I hope you feel better and find something inspiring either out in nature or in visiting with a friend or family member. That helps me sometimes when I'm feeling unfocusedly upset at myself and down about the past, present or future...
I pulled a card for you from the on-line Graven Images Oracle and got Reflection (it shows an angel with hands in prayer) and it says this:
Reflection harkens back to Temple in that it is a card of considerations. Unlike Temple, which calls for additional thought before actions are undertaken--Reflection calls for meditation and evaluation in the midst of activity. This is a midway point. Steps have been taken, decisions have been made and executed, and some effects of those steps have already been felt or seen. This is the moment to examine the path taken, and alter projections. It is a card of introflection, subtle changes and attention to detail. Good can be made better with the proper time and care.
Seems pretty good. I think maybe it asks you to look at what you've done well and also continue to plan for the future. I guess that's all any of us can, really.
Hugs,
Hannah/MM
Dear PLN, I had a soft smile as I read this post. Not to be insensitive - not at all. But it so agreed with my own reflections of my younger years. I think your expression is far more mature than some puerile "I regret nothing" statements. Of course, I'm not saying one should live in regret, but acknowledging a wrong path is far more healing than denying it. I think it's the foundation for growth.
ReplyDeleteI think this card is there to lift your spirits up a bit - it's an image of faith and being comfortable under the moon. Given it's a full moon, specifically I take this to refer to the emotional intensity and jittery energies prevalent in a full moon. Blessings.
Thanks MM. I really appreciate that your words. I know that you and many of my other friends have moments like this. As much as I wish none of us did, I does help to know it is not only me. The Graven Images card helped. Thank you for pulling that for me. You are very kind.
ReplyDeleteThanks Monica. I know what you mean. And I do think that feeling this way means I have learnt from life and mistakes, where some people obviously don't see the lessons and opportunities in their past. I like what you say about the full moon. I hadn't thought of it in that way.