The River that Runs into the Future

So this chap has made it into the draw again for the second day in a row. He must have something he wants to say and he looks like the kind of fella who wouldn't have much trouble in telling me either. What I notice first is that the bird seems to be in an advantageous position. He's up high, which I imagine is good for spotting his prey. He can see for miles, so probably has a good idea of the bigger picture. When translated, this could mean that I will soon be in a position to see things more clearly and look further into the future than maybe I have been recently.

The bird doesn't look too happy. Maybe he has realised that even from this height, he cannot see too much waiting for him on the horizon. Is this the point of today's reading? As the days pass, my confidence is lowering regarding work and part of me wonders how much longer I should hold off before seeking benefit again. Of course, I don't want to, which is why I have supported myself for the last few months without employment or the help of the government, but that money will only last for a certain amount of time and it is running down. I was hoping that things might have kick started by now. I never received a reply back from the guy at the School of Doom, who had suggested there might be more work for me this term. I am seeing my two practitioner friends tomorrow, since we are visiting our friend who is ill with cancer. One of them is my old mate and agent, so I am hoping that she might shed some light on that specific job and that the two of them may have some news about the new agency they were talking about setting up. At the moment, I can see the river that runs into the future, but it is obscured. I am hoping that the clouds will soon clear for me to fly to my next location soon.

A lot of people have expressed disappointment in these courts, since they are animals rather than human, but I actually find them easier to connect to; this might be because a human in a card can sometimes limit me to the kind of people he or she reminds me of physically. These courts cut through physical attributes, age and gender. I could see my boyfriend and I in the last two day's cards far better than through the eyes of other tarot decks I have used. They seem to hold personality more effectively.

My mum just passed my room and told me that our estate agent had called. I didn't tell you about the couple from the weekend, did I? Well, they were a little on the strange side. Even though very nice and polite, they certainly wouldn't look out of place living next door to Oddbod. Apparently, they went to see two houses after ours. The agent said they liked all three, but our properly is the cheapest. Is this what the card is showing? That the clouds in the picture are beginning to disperse, so that we can see the river's destination that bit better? Or does it have anything to do with the card's traditional meaning of movement and change? My mother asked what the cards looked like today. Of course, this one has something to say. In fact, it was possibly trying to tell me about all of this yesterday. I am hoping that the hawk (or Knight of Arrows) concerns a final clearing of doubt. I want to see what's behind the cloud and where that river ends up.

Like many, I usually dread court cards turning up, but these have been far more talkative than most. There is a lot in them. I think they have actually unlocked the Wildwood for me and helped me to find a back door into to the forest. I keep going back and looking at that picture of the hawk, wondering if there are any clues I have missed. I'd say that the key is in the cloud, which definitely seems to be on the move, so for today, I'd say that the card is all about being able to get a better and clearer look at a situation. However, I just pulled the Druid Animal Oracle from my bookshelf. Since it is also illustrated by Worthington, I wondered if the creators of that deck (Phillip & Stephanie Carr-Gomm) have anything more to say about the hawk, which also rests within their illustrations. This one is a Merlin. It doesn't actually say which kind of hawk the one in the Wildwood is. It would seem that the two birds have a similar agenda, being able to look at life in perspective. One thing that I do notice about the one from the Wildwood is that he is looking behind, rather than to where the river flows. I think this shows the importance of where we have been, as much as to where we are going, but I do wonder if it is a dwelling on past failures that has produced the fog and doubt in my present.




Illustration from The Wildwood Tarot and The Druid Animal Oracle by Will Worthington