The Door to the Future

It's murky outside. It's one of those days where you have to actually go right up to the window to examine if it is raining or not. I can't tell from here, but it looks as though it ought to be. The trees and hills in the distance are cloaked in mist and the bushes in our garden are mildly shivering in the Autumn breeze. I guess that this is how things will be from now on in. The weather has changed. Today was the first day that I put my big navy donkey jacket on to go out.

There is something a little comforting in this kind of weather. It reminds me of being in primary school. In the afternoon, we would all sit on the carpet and listen to a story. Often, the main lights would be turned off and outside of the classroom, the Autumn leaves would chase each other around the playground in the wind. At 3.30, my mum would be waiting at the gate with the other parents and it would be time to go home, wrapped up in my anorak.

The change of the season always seemed more of a big deal as a kid, but I am still very sensitive to it now. I have just been down to make a coffee. My parents are dozing with the cat and it is dark and cosy in the living room. It was only yesterday that I thought about actually leaving this house. Before, it had all been about leaving the declining community and our bastard neighbours. I'd kind of forgotten that we would be leaving this house, which has absorbed so much of us. Arrangements are being made today, but of course, nothing is 100% certain just yet. There is always so much to go wrong.

Anyone who remembers my previous draws with the Celtic Dragon Tarot will remember Wyvern. As you can see, he came and settled on my speaker the moment that the deck was pulled from it's box again. He reminds me of the small dragons in the 3 of Pentacles, seated above the door. Wyvern brings a little Celtic music with him, courtesy of YouTube, which adds a nice mood to this grey afternoon. I often get this tarot card when preparation for a job is underway. I am not in the midst of an interview process this time, but I do have a few things I want to invest my time in, relating to getting work. I am being a little secretive about all of this, but a package arrived this morning which will help me. The man in the card is painting onto his door. Three pentacles relate to growth. From my understanding of this depiction, his work on the door will soon enable him to walk through it to his future, which is what I hope the project I have ahead of me will allow me to do too.


Illustration from The Celtic Dragon Tarot by Lisa Hunt