Like a Virgin

Do you remember staring at the clock when you were a kid? Trying to see the minute hand move? How ever much you stared at it, it never seemed to, but then after turning away to look at the television, you'd look back again and realise that five minutes had passed. This is how I look at this chariot. It doesn't look as though it's going too fast, does it? However, it is moving, even if we can't see it. In the small book that comes with this deck, we are advised 'Know that your chariot can advance even if it seems to be going nowhere'.

This was quite a good card for me to draw this morning before going to my Maths class. It's my second real session there. I wasn't particularly looking forward to going; mainly because I would prefer to be doing something other than Maths, but also down to my worrying whether I will learn enough to eventually get me through the test. When I am there, it is not so bad. As I look through the questions, it jogs something in my memory. I am a Maths virgin with a shady past and bits of suppressed knowledge find their way to the surface. After two hours, I had had enough and the walls came down, but my tutor seemed impressed with what I had done. It feels as though I am not getting particularly far, but like today's card, I think things are moving ahead, even if they don't always look as though they are.

After my lesson, my parents took me off to PC World and I bought my new iMac. The woman who served me was really helpful. I had not known whether to take advantage of the Apple care plan, so I dithered about until she discounted it. As well as them being there for constant support, she said that you can make appointments for tutorials and to ask them how to do different projects on the machine, should you wish. As I write, it is still boxed up. I thought I'd wait until my boyfriend gets here before setting it up. It's been sitting in the corner all day. I have learned to be much more patient with age, but in honesty, I am not much good with instructions, so it's probably best that he takes the lead.

I kind of fancied going out this evening, but my boyfriend suggested we do tomorrow instead. I always used to enjoy Friday nights out more than Saturdays. It has a different buzz, probably being the first night of the weekend. So for tonight, I think we will have a quiet one, setting the new computer up and watching the final of Celebrity Big Brother.


Illustration from The Tarot of Reflections by Francesco Ciampi