Pig Headed

Look at the eyes in this king. If you really look into them, they're kind of piercing. He looks right into you, and like the little book that comes with this deck states, becomes your reflection. If I am going by what Titania Hardie says, then this guy is our Aries Male, since he is right side up. The closest Aries male to me is my boyfriend. He messaged me this morning to say that he has a telephone interview for a job tomorrow, so this could be him in the card, grabbing the bull by the horns, gripping the wand in his grasp, or taking control of the telephone from it's receiver.

Our weekend was busy. Doesn't everything seem to always hit at the same time? We got up early to visit my boyfriend's little niece on Saturday morning as it was her 4th birthday. Her parents had organised a party out of the house, so we were only there for an hour or so to give her her card and money, for which be both received a kiss. She is growing before our eyes. When I met her, she was just a toddler, but now, her personality is changing as she becomes more independent. As much as it is nice to see her growing up, I kind of miss the way she was.

From there, we drove to see my oldest friend, who gave birth recently. With cuddly smurf under arm, we dropped in for a few hours in the afternoon. Both her and her husband were tired, but we drank tea and chatted as my friend lay on the sofa with her three week old little boy. It was lovely to see, since this baby took a long time coming. There was a point when I thought she may never make motherhood, but as with all miracles, little Dylan took everyone by surprise. He really is a beautiful little boy and so special, due to how long it took for him to finally get here. I could feel myself becoming tired as the afternoon darkened, and soon enough, my yawns turned to a headache. However, we still had one last visit of the day to make. We then drove on to another friend's home, where her and her new boyfriend cooked us a delicious trout dinner. The evening was simple, sitting in her kitchen at the table and talking. I had only met her boyfriend once very briefly, so it was an excuse to get to know him better. Even though his English is only a few years old, down to him being Spanish, it wasn't too difficult of a barrier to break.

Unfortunately, the weekend did produce a death. My main computer is now up in a kind of heaven that we call the loft. It wouldn't turn on for four days, and like any loving family member would, I eventually pulled the plug. I can't be doing with it's temperamental attitude, turning on one day, and then not the next. With no use, it was starting to take up space and it's mechanical whining was beginning to annoy me. Thinking that I might eventually end up putting my foot through it, I packed it up and sent it upwards. I am currently using the laptop that it initially replaced six years ago. Next to my newish Netbook, it looks as though it was fashioned in 1985. It's funny how things date so quickly these days. It kind of scares me. But there is something kind of appealing about how basic it seems under the fingertips. I dragged it out because it has old versions of Adobe Photoshop and Illustrator on it. For this blog, it is nice to be able to fiddle about with cards and stuff visually before I publish.

One of the points of this deck is to look at our own reflections, so even though I see my boyfriend and his good news in today's card, I also see myself. I have often said how I see myself in this king. My boyfriend mentioned how demanding I am yesterday, which is definitely one of this king's personality traits. My father is waiting from the call from the hospital, since his operation is scheduled for today. If it is anything like last time, he still has many hours of sitting and fasting before a bed becomes available. He and I had words last night, and as per usual, he is dragging out the bad feeling by ignoring me. I am worried about his operation but see no use in trying to talk to him at the moment. You might see today's court figure and it's reflection as the two of us; one being just as pig headed as the other.


Illustration from The Tarot of Reflections by Francesco Ciampi