This is the moving on card for me. I can't remember if I spoke about my experiences with it on here before or not. In one of my previous jobs, I had grown tired of how I was being treated. What with the five hours of travelling I had to endure every day, I had had enough. I drew this card one morning and wondered if it meant that things were about to come to a head. When I got in, I spoke to my friend, Andriana. As she was interested in my tarot readings, I told her about the 8 of Cups and she immediately told me not to worry, saying 'Its's not you, it's me .. I'm handing my notice in this morning as I've got a new job'. Because we'd all had enough of the place, I was pleased for her, but still couldn't get my head around the card. I explained to her that I had read it as someone moving on that day, rather than in a month's time.
Eventually, she went for a meeting with our boss and hit her with the news. Our boss seemed a little shocked but the deed was done. As the day began to wrap up, we started to prepare ourselves for home. It was then that a lady from Human Resources and a security guy came to Andriana's desk. They told her that since she would be working for a competitor, she needed to clean her desk and would be leaving that very day to go on gardening leave. We were all quite taken aback. It meant that she didn't have a chance to say goodbye to everyone properly, so we all organised a farewell party for her in London a week later. As a parting gift, I gave her The Morgan Greer, since that was the very deck I had drawn the card from.
I received a message from my boyfriend this morning. He is not happy at work either. He feels as though he is being taken advantage of, and after last week's meeting with his manager to express his dissatisfaction, he has not heard anything back. With this card in mind, I reminded him to not do anything rash. You can push and push at my boyfriend, but eventually, he will blow. When he finally does, you'll know it and I don't want him to do anything he'll regret. I can see him telling them where to stick their job, and as satisfying as that might be, it won't do him any favours in the long run. They're really cutting their nose off, despite their face. They have got a great worker and a lot of potential in him and they'll only realise that when someone else has snatched him up.
I have looked all over today's card, but can't see any kind of obvious reflection; well, not like other reflections in this deck. In this card, one person seems to be walking away from another. If the card represented two people, then I might feel sorry for the woman on the left, since the one walking away on the right seems to have outgrown her. However, I think it is more likely that the figures are one and the same. I had a nice evening out at the weekend, but I do feel as though I have outgrown nights like that. Is this 8 of Cups about leaving that side of things behind as I get closer to turning 40? We discussed what I am going to do for my birthday and I explained that I want something low-key. To be truthfully honest, I don't really want to do anything. My boyfriend is going to take me away for a week, which I am up for, but I have had more than my fair share of birthday parties and don't fancy another one (a surprise party being the worst option of all). The 8 of Cups is all about a need to leave something behind. Yes, I am frustrated with how things sit at the moment. I keep being told that 40 is a milestone and right now, I don't feel as though I have much to show for it.
Illustration from The Tarot of Reflections by Francesco Ciampi
Oh man--yeah, you know what? I can relate to the birthday thing. I was reading that and nodding. I have had a few birthdays in recent years where anything other than the smallest celebration sounded distasteful.
ReplyDeleteI always felt odd at parties--like it was a big fake to-do. The whole thing feels contrived. That is, unless it's something you're truly super duper into and you feel excited about from the get-go. Otherwise...why bother? The whole point is to enjoy yourself and relax.
One year I went and got a massage. Another year I went to visit a couple friends (near, but not on my birthday). The years where I had parties were fine, too, but sometimes the guests seemed bored or uncomfortable which is sort of funny when you think of it.
Then again, the best parties are the ones where it's just a very small handful of close friends or family members, and there is no pressure about it being a big deal.
I am really sorry your BF continues to be marginalized at work. I am hoping 2012 brings much greater job satisfaction for him. Also: I know it may sound hollow but I think you've got a lot to show in your almost 40 years. I also go through these (sometimes really lengthy) phases of feeling completely crappy about myself, losing touch with whatever positive qualities I thought I had.
But in the end it's all there--the skills, the potential, the experiences. Even if it comes in dribs and drabs.
Hope you have a nice week!!!
HUGS,
MM
Thanks Mentha. I think you and I see a lot of things in the same way. Actually, there are a small group of us on these blogs that seem to.
ReplyDeleteYou know, my extended family can't pass one single birthday without a party. And funnily enough, they are nearly always surprise parties. The irony is that the biggest surprise would be if they didn't have one. And with each one, you'd think they'd never had one before. Our stomachs drop every time we get an invite. Something that is supposed to be fun is such a chore and I wonder if anyone else feels it. I was nodding at your post too, thinking of those big-fake-dos.
I remember commenting on how last year's birthday was just right; a small breakfast with four or five mates in the morning and then off to my boyfriend's in the evening. I find the 'attention' on my birthday a little embarrassing and overwhelming, so small is better these days. I've had many a big do and I have seen those bored and uncomfortable faces you mention. It's like they're doing their time until they can politely duck off. I've done it myself.
It seems that a lot of the time, people feel they should do something. I always remember reading that 'should' must be replaced with 'could' (think it might have been Louise Hay who said that). My friends want me to do something. They say 'you've got to celebrate your 40th'. I was told that they were planning a surprise trip for me. I am so glad that I found out about it because I don't think it would have been my kind of thing.
Thanks for your kind words. And they don't sound hollow. I know that you know of a lot of the things I have accomplished. I may not be in some wonderfully paid place of power at the moment, but those little things drawn, made or written (such as the commitment I have made to this blog) are things that many people never find the time to do; not to mention the work I have done, trying to inspire kids creatively. A happy and pleased face from a student means far more.
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