Moving towards Calmer Waters

I was up early again yesterday morning, since it was dentist day. I had part of my treatment, which was the filling on a tooth that hurts all the more now. Apparently, the cavity was deeper than thought and the nerve was exposed, so she suggested I might feel some discomfort. I left it six hours before eating anything, but can you believe that when I did, I chipped a tooth on the other side of my mouth? Just my luck.

Away from the blog, I have pulled a few extra cards during the last handful of days. Receiving the 8 of Cups a couple of times, it was no surprise that my boyfriend told me he wanted to hand his notice in to work on Monday. His boss has been pretty uncooperative and has been piling more duties [that he is not experienced in] on his plate, which has been getting him down. Like me, he lets things build up until they take over, so after two nights of worrying and sleeping no more than a few hours, he called in this morning and said he wouldn't be in for the second day in a row. His boss has arranged a meeting for tomorrow to discuss the problems, but generally, has been pretty unsupportive. I hate seeing my boyfriend like this. He is laying beside me quietly. We're watching tv at his house, but I know that the job situation is on his mind and that he is dreading going in to sort it out.

It brings back so many memories for me. My boyfriend's working history is not quite as blemished as my own, since I have been in a similar situation a good few times. In one of my last full time jobs, I remember emails flooding in that I didn't understand, meetings building up that I was dreading, and more responsibilities being added to my agenda which I didn't know how to perform. I'd go for a cigarette on the bench outside, actually wanting to walk past it to the tube station and go home. I felt like a cup that someone was filling but wouldn't stop, watching me overflow. I didn't feel as though I had any support and was on my own.

My boyfriend has his meeting tomorrow and I can see that in today's key card, the 6 of Swords. I have heard that some see the cloaked figures as being bent beneath some kind of shame. Although I know my boyfriend has nothing to be ashamed about, I can see feelings of apprehension in the card. I guess he'll be nervous about facing his two superiors in the morning. But this is essentially a good card, because it takes him from a place of worry into smoother waters. Now he has spoken to his team leader on the phone, I think that journey has already begun. The Knight of Wands hurries things along.

From what I have read about the spread that these four cards are taken from, the placement of The Sun brings warmth to the reading. It takes it towards a better place and lifts the mood. The last card is often yet to come into play and I see The Lovers here as a choice to be made. Two options will be available for my boyfriend, probably tomorrow. I asked him what he thinks they might be and he reckons it might be to either continue doing the work he doesn't like nor understand, or resign. Since he has been applying for new jobs, maybe one of them might present a way out to come.

Illustration from The Radiant Rider Waite, based on the drawings of Pamela Coleman Smith and redrawn by Virginijus Poshkus.