Tuesday, 12 June 2012
Inside the Emotional Washing Machine
I couldn't keep my eyes off of this queen when I drew her this morning. In the comment section of a previous draw, another blogger commented on how the paintings in this deck remind him of the shining images by Gustave Moreau. I agree, but this queen in particular put me in mind of The Angel Standing in The Sun, painted by Turner. My father took me to a Turner exhibition when I was quite young, and this one seems to have been etched in my memory. Even though the details on the card are small here, it doesn't detract from her beauty. It is as though she has ascended from some kind of whirlpool, as she sends what look like electric currents of emotional connection through the water to her fishy friends. You can see her mermaid's tail, so in contrast, it looks as if she has actually elevated from the water, pushed up by the turbulent sea of emotion. This Queen of Water really is something.
The Queen of Water is an interesting one because her strengths can sometimes become her weaknesses. I see my mother as a Queen of Earth these days. I think she always was, being practical and a Virgo, but during difficult times, she began to come up as the equivalent of this water card in my Marseilles readings many years ago. In the Grimaud version, she always looked uneasy and a bit shaky. This was when my mother turned her emotions within, which is the danger of this queen, who can sometimes drown in the intensity of her feelings. She is very sensitive to the world around her, but unlike other queens, will not speak up about her problems, choosing to churn them around inside. I have learnt that the churning of problems, like some kind of emotional washing machine, can have devastating effects. Like laundry, they've got to come out eventually. For me, it was an emotional breakdown in my twenties that released mine. It's never good to hold worries within. Get them out. Tell your fellow dolphins and whales, like this queen is!
The last time that this card came up, I saw the queen as my therapist. Interestingly, I have had a session with her today. I thought about the connection as soon as I pulled the card. It shows Elizabeth's empathy, patience and ability to listen. I am not sure how many of these sessions I have had - possibly four - but I am finding them very useful and can definitely see improvements in my coping with health issues through the guidelines she has implemented.
Going out and back and out again dragged me into tiredness, so I rested up this afternoon, since I thought I was going out to my mediumship circle with Kate this evening. She has just called for a chat, because she has a migraine and doesn't feel up to making it. I am helping my friends out tomorrow with a project they are doing in a school so it is probably for the best; I can get myself ready for the morning and have an early night. I am interested in seeing how my assisting them will work with the changes in my fatigue.
Illustration from Doreen Virtue's Angel Tarot Cards by Steve A. Roberts